I have Tourette Syndrome. Info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tourette_syndrome
I used to be cool with it, it did not affect me. I actually liked it cause I felt special. I would always tell people to call me Twitchy and would crack jokes about it. But now I feel like I did something wrong and I am being Punished. There getting much worse. Without any signs of it going away. My Symptons are: Blinking and Twitching My Eyes. Clearing my Throught, and an old "friend" that has come back, Going HMMmm. It actually starts to hurt. I do not know why. I read somewhere recently that it might never go away. But my parents said it will go away. I thought to myself, what if it does not go away. I imagined my life with Tourette's and I started to cry. There has been nights when I was young when I would cry because I had this. I would pray every night and hope my Tourette's would go away. And I woke up the morning very dissapointed. I have always been picked on about it. But I keep that from my family. People mimic me, call me a Twitchin Bitch, and more. The worst guy is this kid named Todrick. He used to be my friend before I was diagnosed and then he started making fun of me. The worst thing he does is yell across the classroom "Luke, Quit Twitchin!" I hate it. Sometimes I feel like it would just be over if I kill myself. But I am too scared. People also say that even when I die I will keep rolling my eyes and Twitchin. I always tried to act like I was tougher than it. I would laugh at other people's jokes and call myself Twitchy. I hate that name now. And the jokes have gotten way worse. I try to shrug it off and laugh along still. But it hurts inside. I am afraid. I feel like I will always be like this. I know I am acting like a brat because most people have it way worse than me. And it is my fault because I would tell people to call me Twitchy and laugh along with them. But I cannot say anything now. They laugh at me saying I am crying when I actually feel like it on the inside. Lately this year my eyes would be so tired because of the concessive blinking. I just do not know what to do. I am scared. Scared that I will never be accepted. I just want to be normal. Like everyone else at my school. I just don't know anymore. If I ever decide to kill myself. I just want people to know why. Why everyone picks on me. Why I am never excepted. Why I feel Sane. But To everyone else I'm just Strange.
